Its been quite a while, I mean damn, I remember when blogging was a lifestyle for me, and the whole grade would talk about my blog. Let's hope I haven't lost my touch, Well, its become part of my past, but I just want to incorporate a bit of my present into this blog. Well basically, I promised my darling I'd post a whole post about her. So basically, here goes the story. I had been in a relationship for most of my past posts. Things spiraled down and didn't work out, simple as that. But here's the the good part, it led into something amazing. Its like that was something good which ended, and then I was directly hit by something out of this world, you get me? I might seem like hypocrite since I used to say the same about someone else in the past, but then, haven't we all been somewhat hypocrites. The important thing is, since this should be the last post I have for quite a while, let's just hit people who know me with some truth that is going to cost me a bit, but then again, when have I ever cared? The reason my past relationship spiraled is cause I did something when I was "drunk". Did I drink? Yes I did. (Like I know if a relative sees this I'm fucked, but it was a one time thing, so calm your tits about it) Was I drunk? Slightly. Here's the part that could catch quite a bit of people off guard. Was I intoxicated to the point where I didn't know what I was doing? No. I knew my every move and simply manipulated the slight smell of alcohol and the complicated friendzone I was in with my current and perfect lover to create a fun night for the both of us. It was pretty obvious we just needed a spark to set us of. So my subconscious side probably wanted that to happen. It wasn't something I was aware would cost me my past relationship, but it happened and it led to my current one, which to be honest, I'm much happier in due to it feeling more real, and my amazing misses actually making feel like I mean a lot to her, a feeling I've never experienced. So a few days after the whole incident things ended, and much sooner than later, my sub conscious side turned into my fully conscious side, took control of my fragile, emotional mind, and I did what I wish I would've done a lot earlier than I did. Any who, so my current relationship? It's pretty much what I've ever wanted. You know, the kind of girl who's interested in the same stuff, always down to talk to you, hangs out with you a lot. Putting aside the fact that she's astonishingly beautiful, her personality, out of this world. The positive vibe she has is just so delighting. I mean, its to the point where just holding hands with her sends a rush through my body. She's like the type where you can say on a scale of one to ten, she's a twenty. Things just click perfectly together. I'm not going to write a cheesy love paragraph about her (I know I used to do that, I was pathetic) but just state facts. She's interested in my career and supports me in it, I mean, what more can I say? I've said it before on this blog, but this is honestly a very powerful emotion, love. Not the confused hormone filled teenager kind like I've experienced, this is the real deal. Any who, its been less than a month, I just hope it lasts for quite a while, because this is the first time I've gotten attached so quickly and opened myself up so much. I know you'll read this baby, so yeah, don't break both Fiasco and Toxic Bass' heart. (How many personalities do I have?!) I've opened myself up fully, so just know when I say I love you, I mean it, and if I say good bye, it'll be the day I die. With all due respect, Fiasco out.
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