Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Day 29: Are You Ready to Make Some Noise?

Day 29:  Are You Ready to Make Some Noise?

"To play on a stage, in front of a crowd like that, is my dream"
Apologies on missing a day. Monday was my day off from blogging, and yesterday I had a cold therefore wasn't active enough to get up, think, and type. Problems are beginning to arise. My gaming addiction has seemed to click back in, and at a vital time. I have final exams next month. Its an addiction, far worse than blogging. Because when blogging I can state I won't update in so and so days, and will be forced to be oblige with my words, but gaming is just something you find yourself doing. I really hope I can control this addiction up until after my finals. Today has been quite a disappointing day. For starters, nothing great happened. Not like something great has to happen, but still, I'm used to good news, so it was a bit weird not receiving any. I had a quick 5 minute conversation with my history teacher, and he seemed to be quite knowledgeable about the university I'm going to. He hit me with some very bad news. I'm on the IGCSE road and should be done with it next year (Hopefully). If I want to get in that university, I have to take 8 subjects, meaning I can't drop one, take all three science, and score A* in seven of them, and not get lower than a C in any subject. If I fail that, I need to do A-Levels, meaning an extra year. That's not an issue, because I'll be 16 by the time I do my IGCSE's, and I should take a 3 quick months break and enroll in my A levels if I don't achieve the impossible of getting 7 A*'s. I ditched him before he gave me the requirements of my A-Level's score. But the 7 A*'s or A-Levels was if I wanted to be "considered" by the university. Quite disappointing. Tomorrow's Thursday! I shall be Dj'ing for a bit in a friend's birthday party. I also love Thursdays, cause something usually stands out, and if fate misses out on giving me something good, believe me I'll make something out of nothing, cause weekends are my thing. As for today, its a pretty calm day. I don't have homework. The only thing I did was go and get my friend's anniversary gift wrapped up. Congratulations, I'm glad you can last that long with a girl without being on the verge of insanity (Joke, so that's your cue to laugh). I've been noticing my DJ name has been spreading around, cause people have been liking my Facebook page from all different local schools, so I'm happy about that. I've recently got myself in a mess which seems impossible to clean up, got more on my plate than I can handle. The topic is super touchy, so I can't even mention anything about it. Just thought I'd blow out some of the steam from it here. Can't wait for tomorrow, in the party mood! Bad stuff happen when I am though, hope I don't do anything I regret. With all due respect, Fiasco Out.

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Day 28: Clear Enough?

Day 28: Clear Enough? 

"Don't Feel like you have to change, there's nothing that can make you better"
Throwback Sunday! I hate Sundays though, they're so depressing. If the fact that it's the start of another school week tomorrow isn't bad enough, Sundays and Wednesdays are my hated most school weeks, although the thing about Mondays, something good usually happens mid way through my day. I don't have my hopes high or anything, but yeah, I shall be expecting nature to maintain its schedule. As a DJ, I keep browsing songs, and listening to different songs, old and new. I call it "track digging". So yesterday, I was listening to a few Mike Posner songs. I stumble upon this song called "Cheated on You". In it, Posner describes how he used to be dating a whore and he should've cheated on her. I haven't dated much, but I've gotten in quite a number of unofficial commitments, and the reason is, I'd always get screwed over before getting anywhere. The amount of names that popped up into my head when I listened to that song was just spectacular. But today isn't about any of them. Its about something amazing, the best thing you can ever think of me, and the person I love the most! It's about me! Just kidding, let's take things back to the end of Summer 2012, and the introduction into a new school year, and a few events that basically dictate my life now. Friends wise, I had met a few people in school who mattered and we got along, and my entrance was smooth. I never believed in love at first sight, and was there a girl that proved me wrong? Nope, its still bullshit to me that could get you dead like what happened to Romeo and Juliet for being such in love fags. But I do believe in finding someone is attractive, moving in for a kill, letting your guards down and you get killed but while killing them at the same time, you get me? So basically, I walked into math class, and sat down next to a few of the guys I knew. I looked across and there was this beautiful girl who just lit up everything around her. She just stood out. I had a couple of classes with her on my first day, but she was never in the crowd so I can try and say something. I'd find myself losing concentration and looking at her when she was close. I'd never given it any serious consideration, and I was at a point in my life where I was planning to just try and use my flirting abilities for one night stands due to an unlucky past. So second day in my new school, I finally found her talking to someone I knew, I still remember this scene very clearly, it was a biology class, and it was the last day before we went off into a one week holiday. Now or never, and I just let my player side kick in, went in, introduced myself, got her name, told her we should talk more, she didn't have a phone so I just got her Facebook and we talked for quite a while in that one week. I'd pull a few moves everyday, hit on her every now and then, jumped into the close friend zone so I can manipulate it, and boom, worked like a charm. I could tell she was digging me although I wasn't certain. The one day I get a phone call from my friend who's super close with her and after some interrogation on whether or not I liked her, she told me that she did. Things went as I had planned, well not really. I got this feeling in my chest, and then I started thinking about her way too much. Not something I'd get in my hit and run lifestyle, so yeah, I ended up getting official a couple of weeks later, and although people had expected me to last not more than a month, we've been going for almost 6. She's truly amazing, extraordinary, and perfect. With all due respect, Fiasco Out.  

Day 27: Where Are My Keys?

Day 27: Where Are My Keys? 

"Or use your knowledge to control your ego"
Today's blog is late, just like old times! Had a rough day at school. Nothing particular, just suffering from exhaustion due to lack of sleep, and there's also the fact that nothing stands out. Three top "negative" things I get called: player, cocky, and man whore. My reply is usually a smile. I have a girlfriend, I get that. Do I flirt with other girls to deserve that title? Hell yes. Is it something major? Hell no. I jokingly and most subliminally do it. Its not on purpose or I don't have a specific aim from it. I got my girl and she got me. Am I cocky? Well that's my favorite argument. I call it being very confident, you call it whatever the hell you want. I'm too "cocky" to care what you call it. But I have an ego, I know what I'm capable of, I'll deceive, cheat, and work my way to getting what I want. I don't lie, that's not in my book. But I have an ego Kanye West would be jealous of. Man whore, usually directed towards me because most of my time I'm surrounded by girls. I'd laugh and take it as a joke cause my ego tells me not to give a damn what anyone thinks. Yeah, you could've guessed it, this isn't Fiasco talking, its his ego. Proud to have one. Any who, I have a master plan for this week I'm putting into effect, can't give details, but yeah, can briefly attempt to describe it. I'm basically sick of trying, so I want to see if that person would put me over themselves and and try. If they don't, let's just say I won't and I'll be a tad angry, and I don't hurt people or say shit about them when I am, I just go out and do shit they won't like. I have an ego but its damn annoying when others have one. I control mine and use it to my advantage, while others just show there's. If you have the gift of being overly confident, take advantage of it. I'm also going to see some interesting shit go down. Gotta love it when someone gets a taste of there own medicine. No story tonight, but yeah, more of a discussion, tomorrow is Throwback Sunday, so that will be quite an interesting story. With all due respect, Fiasco out.

Friday, March 22, 2013

Day 26: My Words Are Bullets

Day 26: My Words Are Bullets 

"Trust is like paper, once its crumpled, it'll never be the same"
 My words: A projectile for firing from my heart, typically of metal, cylindrical and pointed, and lethal depending on the subject. Its been a while since I last blogged, a little less than 3 weeks. No, I didn't get bored, even with my extremely complex schedule, I still could've found 20 minutes to type a blog everyday. There are reasons, well, far too complex for most to understand. So basically, I felt as if I had lost the sense of privacy in my life. I was giving out my every day life, and even though there were no details, or if it was a touchy subject I'd talk about it briefly to avoid problems, I still had a much larger local crowd then I had expected. I started off thinking only 2 or 3 people who were my best friends were going to read my blog, not the majority of my grade with the ones who haven't heard of internet left out. That was the main reason. Well most of it. My blog had gotten me in a few arguments with someone who matters to me a lot, and I had put that person over me, and wanted to give it a break. Its a long story, and the thing that matters is that I'm back. I certainly still got it, so let's jump straight into it. My DJ career, something that matters to me a lot, and only my education and family might be on top of on my priority list. I have had the reputation of the new kid on the block, but the issue was I had the confidence of a senior DJ. The issue is, most people I DJ for are very greedy and unwilling to spend money. I don't do it for the money, but how the hell am I supposed to get new equipment or fix half of mine already, half of my shit isn't working. Not an issue, I wouldn't expect a majority of people in this third world country to understand that. The thing is, I had a friend who was pretty interested in it all become my partner, and me with the confidence of the senior had decided to take him in and teach him pretty much most of the things that can be taught. You'd expect friends, especially good friends to always have your back. Surprise surprise, after I throw him out with me and pick the songs for him and all he has to do is mix, he got the reputation to the point where people would argue he's better than me. After a while he picked up my basic track choice and used it on his own. Not an issue since he's a partner. What was surprising was that after he got a party on his own, he said it was "better" because I didn't choose the songs, when it was pretty much my song choice with a few he decided to add. Still not enough to push me over my limits. But then when he demanded a high amount of money for a party and got called a rip off for it and threw the blame on me, yeah, I had about quite enough. Now most my grade thinks I'm some money hungry dude. To the point where I over heard people who wanted a simple beat for a party say they should get him to do it assuming I would take money for it. I mean no one forces anyone to be there partner, but if you think you can easily do better alone, than that's really up to you. But its just a matter of respect, you can't put down someone who taught you most of what you know just cause you know the basics of how to mix songs, I mean come on, you couldn't even control the gain properly up until I came along. Now this? I mean fucking awesome, my mom would always tell me, don't teach anyone all you know, cause they'll eventually turn on you, guess moms was right. I'm not angry, I just feel offended. Yeah he didn't do it on purpose, but that doesn't change a single thing about what people think. You're gonna read this, and its really stupid how you acted, and I hope my ego didn't transfer onto you, cause its hella hard to control it. On the bright side, I'm back to blogging, and lets hope you guys are back to reading. With all due respect, Fiasco Out. 

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Day 25: Pot of Gold

Day 25: Pot of Gold

"Luck never lasts long"
Today was a day with its ups and downs. Well the downs weren't serious from a neutral perspective. Bad news, Tottenham beat Arsenal and now Chelsea is in fourth place. Rafa better find a way to make sure we qualify to The Champions League. Other than that, its been a pretty good day. Sure, some events happened that leaded to more confusion in my already complex life. The easy way out is sticking to everything I already have, the hard way out has way too many lanes, but one that stands out. The catch, only one way will lead to things going amazingly, and all the others are dead ends filled with disaster. But what I like is that today, I was being honest, and luck was on my side. You see I've always suffered from trusting too much and being too honest from people. It always ends badly when I'm honest or trust someone. I think today have changed though, can't say what happened, but I honestly hope they did change. All I know is that today, being honest either went freakishly well with me, or there's a catch and its going to cause another mess which I'm going to bleed while trying to clean up. Alright, so today is Flashback Sunday! Summer, I had suffered from break up, got over it quickly. I only was dumped cause I was loser as I explained in one of my old blogs, moving on. The transition to Toxic Bass was complete. I was a completely new person. What I want to focus about is what I had a major issue with before I changed. The devils on Earth, females. (If there's crowd, please boo!). After the break up, one girl stood out, from the past, things faded and that's story is also in one of my very early posts. After that, social networking got me attached to one girl, but then when we meet in person I feel that it wasn't mutual and I was like alright, and moved on. I was out of a break up so I liked pretty much any girl that showed the slightest interest, but these were the ones where I feel like they were serious and got buried in me. There were numerous other females and crazy ups and downs and moments which eventually faded, and then I met the one where everything just clicked and things went strong (hopefully still are.) Any who, super short blog today! It was a weekend so nothing interesting happened at all (how I despise Sundays). Fiasco Out! 

Friday, March 1, 2013

Day 24: Awkward

Day 24: Awkward 

"Team Toxic Bass: Brilliance In Every Beat"
Breakout blogger? Breakout DJ? Breakout Social Outcast? All of that in less than one year. I don't know about other famous bloggers, but I'm positive that I'm doing better than most people locally. Its spread to different schools, yesterday got featured on another blog spot link for local writers (Country Wise). It felt a bit weird seeing my "A Little Bit Of Everything" surrounded by political, literature, and artistic blogs. No worries though, means my little attempt of taking out some stress and typing about my life has been successful, thanks to everyone who reads my blog daily! Yesterday was the first Thursday I spend being "grounded". It really didn't feel like I was grounded at all. The only thing that was a bit weird was that usually I'd have friends coming directly from school, but it ended up as me going home alone and sleeping. I woke up, had Omar come a bit later with Lil Man following. We spent the night with a couple of awesome friends and watched a horror movie. The story was horrible, but if you're into demonic stuff, I suggest you check it out: Haunting In Connecticut 2. Its based on a true story, but I doubt that since I don't believe in any paranormal things other than one's stated in religion. No drama at all for the past few days. That's a negative for my blog, but a positive for my self. I guess I'm getting accused a lot of being a horrible relationship partner. Partially true, I am a major flirt always, but its never anything serious even though it always looks like it.  I guess that's my only negative, but I always try doing my part, whether its with always complimenting, doing the romantic stuff like holding hands, and ditching whoever for a few minutes to spend with my darling. Breakout DJ? Well I guess I have a reputation among the cities few elite high schools. Still haven't burst into the University spotlight, or just the public spotlight, but I like doing things one by one, if I can manage to make sure I'm the only one in the high school scene, then I can work on spreading into new groups of people which are more picky and have more high risk parties. I'm just worried about one thing, my reputation will fade as soon as I live this third world country for medical school abroad (Being optimistic about my IG results next year). Breakout Social Life? Not really, but I'm glad my name can ring much more bells than it did this time a year ago. Fiasco Out.